Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Good Ol' Days

So I know this is a kind of late post today. A really late post today. but Ive been down today and not really felt like getting on the internet until now because some things have been going on. M and I talked a lot today and I asked him about the fact that I can hear It. He said I was the only kid he'd ever met who was like that where my dbeing deaf didn't affect the fact that I could hear It when it was nearby.

We've been using me as a warnin gsign of when to run.

I don't really know how to describe the sound of its voice. Whenever It's around I hear this dry, scratchy sound that is almost like what I imagine a radio sound to be. I don't know. It's so hard to put into terms that make sense for me and it freaks me out a lot. When most people hear things does it feel like your whole head is vibrating? Because that is kind of what it's like for me and I don't know how to put it into words. it's dark and scary and it tells me things that I don't understand because I've never heard the words out loud. I told M the sounds I'd heard and he just looked at me all wide eyed and then shook his head.

"Don't listen," he said. "Whatever you do just don't fucking listen. He's trying to get in your brain and I don't want that."
I thought it was odd at the time that he said I don't want that because I don't know if he really cares that I'm around at all. I mean, he stayed with me all that time in my house so I think that counts for something. But I don't really understand why and  Ithink maybe he feels bad for me and that is why he's staying around. Maybe.....he blames himself for me being chased by Slenderman too? Do you guys think that is something M would do?

I don't blame him.

I wanted to help and if I didn't I would never have brought him home. Even when I read the story and thought it was fake, I knew he was a nice kid who deserved help even if he wasn't telling me everything about James and all of that. Even so I wish I could go home and sleep in a bed. My back hurts and the weather seems colder for the fact that we don't have a proper place to stay. Even though it's an incredibly mild winter it's been bad for us. We need to get new clothes and I'm trying to convince M to go to a store with me soon. I miss the good old days at home when I would make him soup and try to convince him to come inside which he rarely ever did.

There were a few times though.

I guess right now there's nothing much to report and I'm basically just using this blog to vent emotional stress. I'm going to log off now and try to sleep because M is looking at me funny and I don't want to make him mad. It rained tonight and we got to watch it from inside a building for once! it was nice and peaceful and I think even M calmed down because we sat and watched for a while, not talking.

Thanks for listening and stuff.

-Bondie

22 comments:

  1. I already told you what I think, kid. Be careful, stay safe, and message me again sometime, yeah?

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  2. It's okay to vent sometimes Bondie. Everyone needs it now and again.

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  3. Yeah, of course he's blaming himself. It isn't his fault because he had no choice in the matter, but he is the source of your troubles. If it weren't for meeting him, you wouldn't be in the same situation.

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  4. jesus bondie. tell M to get his ass online at least once so I can ream him a new asshole for dragging you into this.

    and not in the gay way.

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  5. I agree with Shaun about getting M online. I'd like a little confirmation that this is the real deal; maybe a quick post on his old blog or something.

    I'm not saying that I don't believe you're really Bondie and you don't really have M with you, but I can't imagine any better Runner for a Proxy to impersonate in order to instill false hopes in the other Runners.

    I really feel like an asshat for suggesting that you could be a Proxy posing as Bondie, but I just want to be cautious. I really hope you understand.

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    1. oh believe me, he's real. I've talked to M on the phone a couple of times since this blog started and he's definitely unhappy with the fact that the kid has started this thing. I'll try and con him into getting his ass online some time if you need more proof than that though.

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  6. I always find looking at the rain cathartic. Take your peace wherever you can find it. It is always important to stay in control of your own mind. You cannot think properly if you are ruled by chaos.
    S

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  7. Glad to see you two are doing alrite. Bondie, I know everyone's said it already, but for what it's worth I am very sorry that you got dragged into this. Be safe and try and deal with M the best you can, kay?

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  8. Look I hate to do this, because it feels cheep, but will anyone who knows anything about proxies help me figure out what I'm dealing with while I try to nurse my wounds?
    http://soulpatched.blogspot.com/

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  9. Both of you stay safe.
    People seem to be dropping like flies...

    Don't let you're guards down.

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  10. I really need to know if the slenderman is actually real??? Somebody please answer soon.

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    1. He isnt.

      Unless you've seen him. Then start moving.
      Otherwise. He isn't and you need to believe that.

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    2. That doesn't really help answer my question...

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    3. If you persue this, he'll pursue you.

      Burn your brothers diary and forget.
      Knowing only draws attention to yourself.

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    4. I'm not burning my brothers diary, it's the only lead I've got. I don't believe in any of that retarded 'slenderman curse' shit, but I need the diary to help find my brother.

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    5. Listen kid, the only step forward for you is to learn about him and I HIGHLY do not recommend that.

      Even if he isn't real, your brother believed it and the man who took him believed it.

      So to follow the man, you need to find where someone who believes in slenderman would take your brother if they where trying to pretend to be slenderman.

      All that purely working off your assumption that we're all crazy.

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    6. ...so where would 'slenderman' take him?

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    7. There is not a runner alive who knows that... I wouldn't think.

      You would need to ask a proxy.
      While your not a runner yet, or a proxy yet since thats entirely possible, your looking for your brother implies your trying to interfer with the slenderman's plans.

      Can't imagine one would want to help you with that.
      Thats assuming a proxy would even know.

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  11. I know finally how to kill the slender Man forever causing the end to the slender oppression. join me to kill slenderman once and forever

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  12. Ironic how one of the guys who kicked off the blogosphere now wants to wash his hands of the whole thing. Good luck, bondie. If the guy's half as good as everyone says/thinks he is, you're hopefully in good hands.

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  13. I hope to hell the two of you are still alive.

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