Monday, January 30, 2012


So Id meant to get a post up every single day for you guys but that obiously hasn't happened and I'm sorry for that. M doesn't really like it very muchwhen I get on my laptop but I've been talking to people like Elaine and sShaun to make myself feel better so I'm glad i brought it with me. Shaun mostly told me to keep M safe and thats what I've been trying to do as much as I can. Elaine and I talked about a lot of different stuff. But that is mostly why I haven't posted anything this past week and I'm really sorry to all of you for that. I promise I'll do better from now on.

We're currently in new York obviously. We got here a few days ago after selling my car for plane tickets which was actually a good idea that Elaine had. I wanted to keepthe car but M thought it would be best if we didn't have it weighing us down because we'd have to spend more time on the ground driving it. Being up high is important he says, even if not everyone agrees.

I looked around and saw that it doesn't work for a lot of people. When I asked M he said that it only works most of the time and that not all of his rules are concrete. That's why you have to keep running, because you don't want to be around when the rules stop working and the Keep Running Rule is the only one that seems to work across the board for everyone.  Anyway since we moved to New York I haven't seen him at all while we've been up on roof tops and in people's houses. I don't particularly like breaking into places but M says its a necessity during the winter time because we can't go to hotels. I talked to him about this last night.
"Why?" I asked.
"because being in buildings isn't a fucking good idea most of the time." He answered, and he was glaring a me the whole time. "You can't escape very easily because there's only one way out and that's down. and down is dangerous."

Snow was falling all around and even though it was bitterly cold and I had to squint I could see M's face clearly. He doesn't talk about his appearance much but if I could I would paint him because I think he's a really interesting portrait. I don't think he;s had a hair cut in a long time so his hair is down around his shoulders and makes his face look even more soft than it already is. Even when he's angry, which is a lot, he looks very gentle and I thought hewas a girl when I first saw him in the library. And he's still wearing the green notre Dame hoodie I gave him.

"What?" He snapped because I was staring at him too long.
"Nothing," I said. "I wont ask about hotels anymore is all."

That was the end of that conversation and I feel like i messed up and made him mad. Gosh, has he ever had anyone run with him before? I don't think he knows how to talk to people so if anyone knows what I can do to cheer him up that'd be really great if you'll let me know. This post doesn't really have much point but I just wanted to let you guys know we're bothstill okay. I'll post more tomorrow with anything that happens.



  1. M's been doing this for a while. I think it's hard for him to deal with people after everything.

    If he didn't have some kind of friendship though; I doubt he'd let you stick around him like this.

    Good to hear you're both staying safe and give it time and I'm sure M will cheer up and talk with you more.

    1. Hopefully anyway. I know a lot of people he's been around have died so that might be it. I guess I have to try and not die!

  2. The keeping moving rule works because it is a variable. It adapts to the situation and person involved much the same as the thing its meant to keep you away from does. The get up high rule is dependant upon to many variables to be dependable at all times. Same goes for the keep your eyes open rule.

    sorry thought i'd pitch in my two cents...

    1. Would the Get Up High Rule and the Keep Movign Rule both be variables though? Don;'t be sorry contributing things is awesome and helpful!

    2. That's why I prefer my adaptation of the "Keep Your Eyes Open" rule. It's hard to go wrong with "Stay Alert, Stay Alive."

    3. @bondie
      Quite possibly. The way I see it "keep moving" is a variable, changing to the situation based on presets. "Get up high" is more like a formula based on variables, such as, location, building height, land elevation from sea level, building height relative to land elevation, individuals perception of height, S's influence over said individual, etc. I apologize if I'm coming off as a pompas know-it-all, it's a habit, in truth I know nothing but what I guess at.
      True. Very true.

  3. You could give him... a hug? Hugs are nice. Even prickly people like hugs sometimes. Believe me. Dartsy loves my hugs. <3

  4. About M running with other people before... I think he mentioned he has. And if I recall correctly, it didn't last.
    Try not to look too much into M's frostbitten shoulders, I'm pretty sure that's his way of keeping his distance so he won't be too traumatized if you... Ehem.
    ... Awkward.

  5. Hey M, I read through both your blog and Bondie's, unlike Zeke you seem to be realistic, pragmatic, that's what's needed to keep us alive, I don't know if what I'm experiencing is related to Slenderman, but if it is, Your lessons are going to be used for sure.

  6. Zeke Strahm was a great man, the real Mystic has fallen, but M is gonna stay alive, i feel it in me. If only there were a way to